I found my way to the natural birth community when I was pregnant with my daughter in 2012. I explored around until I found the solution that felt right to me, and ultimately birthed with a midwife at home that October! This experience was so empowering to me that I quickly decided I wanted to help spread the news about how AMAZING our bodies are and I signed up to study to become a childbirth educator. After completing this goal, and learning A TON, I decided to write my own curriculum focusing on connecting with partners but also really emphasizing the power behind the body and how we birth. I really wanted to stay away from scaring women into natural birth and wanted to encourage them to make the choices that were right for them, with all the information they needed!
About a year after launching my natural childbirth class I went on to become a Certified Lactation Counselor (CLC). I not only incorporate that knowledge into my teaching but I also offer lactation services.
Through teaching my natural childbirth class I discovered some trends with the couples I worked with. One of the things is that for some women no matter how many tools I gave them, or how much we talked about the amazing power of the body there seemed to be a disconnect with their own individual power and ultimately some of these people went on to have births that they were disenchanted with (regardless of the particular details of the birth; regardless of if it was unmedicated or not).
Additionally some of the mothers I worked with had past traumatic experiences around birth and their reproductive journey and I really wanted to provide some things to help address that and really offer healing for these parents!
I was really focused on coming up with all the new content to add to my class to address this but was halted in the summer of 2014 when I had a miscarriage. It was very early, and I wanted to believe it was nothing so I had a hard time letting myself process the loss. When we got pregnant 3 months later I had and even harder time connecting to my pregnancy, baby and family.
I was pretty lonely and depressed in the early part of my pregnancy and didn’t want to really deal with the pregnancy I was experiencing. Aside from being very sick with a 2 year old I also had so much hurting in my heart. I needed a way out. Step by step I was able to add in things that I needed and now 2.5 years later I am still growing and learning everyday!
Through my journey healing and connecting with my body, baby and husband I feel like I was given a window into what things really impacted our ability to be be present and connected in pregnancy and birth. I realized how many things played a part in what I believed about my body and the process surrounding my birth and decided to start writing curriculum, again, to address these things in my class.
About 2 months into the writing process I realized that this was much bigger than I originally anticipated and that it was really my biggest passion. I have always been a huge advocate of the healing power of self awareness (things like counseling/journaling/self explorations/ etc) and I love talking about how to connect with those around us (especially our partners, which stems from a whole other long story behind my marriage). I realized that what I really wanted for women/couples, over pursuing natural birth, is just for them to experience the most empowering birth experience. For them to have see how powerful they are. What I really wanted is for people to learn about them selves and learn to really love them selves (and ultimately their families) through the process of becoming a parent. This is how I can contribute to bringing more love and peace to the world.